It hasn't been a good month when it comes to my resolutions.
I didn't lose any weight.
My room is a mess.
My blog has been neglected.
Okay, I'm done. Bye.
Actually, let's dig a little bit deeper into this.
Resolution #1: Achieve my ideal weight.
My nutrition sucks, to put it bluntly. I've been less careful with what I eat. It is almost as if I do worse when a resolution is made. It is as if my body rebels against my mental desires to eat healthy and simple.
If you recall, my last post was about eating healthier and simpler. While I did this a couple of times, I haven't been consistent.
Why is this the case? Why am I like this? If I try to not be distracted I am usually more distracted. If I try not to think of food then my mind is occupied by thoughts of food. Maybe it is better not to make resolutions at all.
But I believe the problem is not in the making or not of resolutions. It goes deeper than that. Call it the good ol' Pauline dilemma as expressed in Romans 7 (For what I want to do I do not do...). Call it our fallen nature. I do not know.
It is a place in my being in great need of the healing grace of God.
Resolution #2: Keep my room clean, year long.
Am I ready to call this a resounding failure? Not quite. Let this resolution suffer a long, miserable and agonizing death!
Not to sound too negative but I feel I've been less attentive in my room cleanliness than I have in the past. You would think that making a resolution, along with monthly updates in this blog, would make a positive difference in the overall cleanliness of my room.
It hasn't. Ditto to what I said in resolution #1.
Resolution #3: Update my blog regularly, minimum once a week.
Okay, okay, last month I made an apparent mental Freudian slip, since I erroneously wrote "once a month" instead of once a week.
If my initial resolution was "once a month", then I wouldn't be eating this hearty crow.
But in being fair, this is one resolution that has actually impacted positively my behavior. I have updated my blog rather consistently, despite my occasional slips into the mud of inconsistency.
That is it for this month. I will see you next month!